The Quiet Room

thequietroomcover– Excerpts from The Quiet Room by Lori Schiller

“As I look back on my childhood, one memory plagues me. It is the memory of the afternoon of the dog. I remember that when I was young my family had a medium-sized black mongrel. He was kept chained to a door. One day as I was in the kitchen with him I suddenly grew angry. In a burst of rage, I grabbed a nearby golf club and began beating the dog furiously. After awhile he stopped moving. Dead. To this day I do not know why I did it. But there is one problem with this memory: It isn’t true. It never happened.  

“Writing this book has been painful and exhilarating. It was painful to force myself to remember things that I would just as soon forget. But its been exhilarating to see how far I’ve come. Dr. Doller told me once when I was in the hospital that I could never go back. I could never again be the girl I was before that dark night at summer camp. Looking over my life, I know now that I don’t want to go back. I want to go ahead. I look forward to a future fulfilled with accomplishment, learning and the love of my family and friends. Many people helped me get to where I am now. Now it is my turn. Painful as it has been, I’ve written this book hoping that my story can help other people find their own ways out of darkness, I will know that I have not wasted the great gift I have been given: the chance to begin life again.”

_____________________

I started reading The Quiet Room on Friday Jan.27th, a cold and gloomy winter day. I had to fight the urge to read it all in one sitting. It’s like each movie I’ve watched or book I’ve read has breathed new life and meaning into my own fight for sanity. I was so excited to read something that would take me deep into the world of schizophrenia.

The Quiet Room is written by Lori Schiller and Amanda Bennett. It gives readers a front-row seat into the life of Lori Schiller and her tumultuous road out of the darkness into recovery. Her story, narrated from first person perspective, takes you into the minds of her family and friends as they dealt with denial and finally acceptance while helping her recovery. Lori didn’t experience her first “voices” episode until she was 17 years old. She came from a loving, close-knit family and was the oldest of three children.

After reading Lori’s story, I am further convinced that mental illness is not always the result of a dysfunctional family or traumatic childhood. Every mental illness follows its own unpredictable path. Lori was going places. She was well on her way to fulfilling all her childhood dreams and making her parents proud. But, I have to wonder did Lori suffer from a classic case of overachievement? Did her obsession with being the best finally push her over the edge? By 1989, at the age of 23, she had been in and out of dozens of psychiatric hospitals and she had tried dozens of stabilizing medications. It wasn’t until she was completely ready to get well did she accept her illness and cooperate with the help she needed.

The Quiet Room is a masterpiece from start to finish! It is a timeless tale of survival, courage and redemption meant to encourage people with even the most severest mental illness cases. If you or someone you know suffers from schizophrenia The Quiet Room is the book for you!

****

His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

All the Things We Never Knew

blog-pics

Chasing The Chaos of Mental Illness

By Sheila Hamilton

Sheila Hamilton is a reporter in Portland, Oregon. She is the ex-wife of David Krohl, a building contractor and devoted father who suffered from bipolar disorder. Six weeks after his mental illness diagnosis…he committed suicide with not so much a note as to his reasons why and a mountain of debt. Sheila was married 10 years before she realized he was in trouble. However, the signs were always there. In the book, Sheila gives a raw candid account of her life with David and the things she went through after his death. She also gives us a profound lesson on how to pick up the pieces and support a child after she has lost her father.

This book was raw and detailed. My heart broke for Sheila and her daughter, Sophie. It also broke for her husband as he battled denial and self-destruction. The book literally takes readers into the depths of denial, guilt and the pain of watching the person you love maintain the semblance of a normal life in all their mental chaos. The book also provides a plethora of mental illness research, education and resources for families and caregivers affected by mental illness.

I had to resist the urge to judge or criticize Sheila’s choices in caring for her ex-husband. There is no “magic” blueprint on how to deal with a tragedy on this level. She showed strength and courage in the face of calamity. David’s story will resonate on my heart and mind for years to come. It gives readers a real-life testimony of unconditional love and loyalty when you feel like giving up.

I encourage readers and mental health sufferers to be aware of the signs and symptoms of mental illness and how it affects everyone around them. Please don’t give up. There is help out there!

****

His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

A Response from Mimi Baird…

Recently I wrote the author and daughter of Dr. Perry Baird regarding my thoughts on her father’s memoir and manuscript, He Wanted the Moon. This book is by far, hands down the BEST book I’ve ever read on the topic of manic depression! It is about the genius and madness of a doctor in the 1940s. What’s more, Brad Pitt is directing the book into a movie to be released at a later date. I was beyond excited after reading Dr. Baird’s story. I think I read the book in 6 hours. I won’t spoil it for you! But, I implore you to visit the website for all the upcoming news and information about the manuscript and how it came to life. (Link Below) There is also an interview with Mimi in the winter 2017 issue of BpHope Magazine!

My Email:
I just finished reading your father’s story today and I am floored at how mental illness was treated in the 1940s. I am also inspired to continue my journey of providing education to the mental illness community. Deep in my heart, Dr. Baird’s story resonates in my spirit as one of truth and martyrdom for people like me who sometimes take their recovery for granted. I would love to hear more of your personal childhood memories in a sequel or movie. Thank you soooo much for being so brave!

Mimi Baird’s Response:

LaQuita, your comment of January 14 was music to my heart.  It makes the efforts that went into writing He Wanted the Moon worthwhile on a multitude of levels.  We are grateful for your honesty and respect your own struggles.  For your information HWTM is to be made into a film!  Check out some early posts on the Facebook page.

With appreciation,
Mimi

For More Information about the Book

Please visit http://hewantedthemoon.com

****

His power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9