Did you see Dark Phoenix?!

One word: Badass!!ūüíĮ If you love the Xmen franchise and Gene’s character you are going to loooove Gene’s backstory!!

The backstory on her life really sets the pace for the entire mutant saga. And I thought Logan was good??!! How can such a destructive, cataclysmic dark gift be wrapped in such a beautiful package?? The actress Sophia Turner played the mutant Gene Grey and she killt it!! aside from the fact that she was drop dead gorgeous and mesmerized you with those piercing brown eyes. I’m trying not to give too many spoilers way lol. So when you go see it come back and comment!! I just may go see this one again!!

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If you’ve been following me for awhile you know that I am a storyline person. It doesn’t matter to me who the actors are…the storyline is what gets me and this one did not disappoint!! So it starts with the 8yr old Gene and how she came to be a part of Charles’s mutant family. From the very beginning Charles knew she was the most powerful of them all but he also knew her heart and he sometimes had to be the bad guy in order to keep her safe and from becoming her own worst enemy. How many of us Bipolar people have a really strong gift that’s also our biggest weakness?? For Gene it was: her mind. (Same here) What she saw as the bad part of herself, or the darkness inside her that she had to be rid of, was the one thing she needed to save the mutant race!!

Then after _?_ gets killed Magneto comes on the scene and all hell breaks loose!! Sorry I gotta leave it there. I don’t wanna ruin it.

But, its so worth it!!

150 min run time.

My take on “THE ACT.”

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When my daughters finally convinced me to watch this show on Hulu, I was skeptical at best and slightly bored with the way they described it. Its a true story. I had heard of people who manipulated the system to get what they wanted so I thought it was pretty typical. Of course, I told them, “NO SPOILERS” and got to watch them squirm in their seats as things slowly began to unfold..

First of all, I was in shock because it all took place so close to where I live and I had never heard of the story. Secondly, the 1st episode was may more than I expected!! As I sat and stared at the scene where the mother opened the cabinet where all her daughters’ medicine was stored. I was literally sitting there with my mouth hanging open trying to wrap my mind around what kind of mental illness would cause this type of behavior on this level?? But, it was a familiar feeling and very uncomfortable. I had the same response when¬† I watched Hoarders for the 1st time. I mean I knew people were sick (me included) but this was sick on a whole other level!! If you haven’t heard about the story by now, don’t feel bad.. I was lost too. It stars Patricia Arquette (CSI: Cyber) playing the mother and Joey King (Ramona and Beezus) as Gipsy the daughter. For decades, the single mother (Dee Dee) suffered from Munchausen by Proxy and learned how to manipulate the system and gain sympathy from people, doctors and hospitals all over the world to keep her daughter sick, broken and dependent on her. Ultimately, Gipsy gains her freedom through one unspeakable “act” that forever changes the trajectory of her life. (Trying not to give too many spoilers lol.)

thO3P5HILCContrary to popular opinion, we all judge when it comes to things we don’t understand and mental illness is no exception. We may not like to admit it. But, every mental illness is different and usually shocking to people who don’t struggle with it and even more shocking for people who do. We tell ourselves “at least my issues aren’t that bad” or “Thank God I will never struggle on that level.” We put ourselves on these pedestals and that’s why we can’t relate when we hear about a mental illness that is outside of the “norm.” Hopefully, Gipsy’s story will shed new light on Munchausen and other people will get help for it before its too late.

My heart broke for Gipsy and I initially felt a deep rage and anger toward her mother.

At first..

Then I got to see just how sick she actually was and I felt an incredible sadness for her as well. She gave me a inside look at how far a mentally ill person would go to ease the pain and suffering she was feeling inside. I could only imagine the mother’s childhood and the things she went through before she had Gipsy. At one point, I had even more sympathy for her. Dee Dee used Gipsy as her security blanket. Just as a baby uses one for comfort. Gipsy loved and adored her mom and never wanted to do anything to hurt or upset her so she went along with her mother’s “act” even when she could sense something was wrong. How many of us have felt that way?? Before our diagnoses?? After?? I remember growing up and pacifying my mother’s behavior. I remember overlooking all the dysfunction just to feel some type of genuine love in my heart. Dee Dee was Gipsy’s world and I didn’t blame her for protecting her mother.

So overall, once I got over all the shock I could see a lot of their behavior in countless stories I have heard over the years and even in a little bit of my own story. So my take away was that we need to allow people to use their voices and share their story, Especially, when it comes to criminal justice!! Not everyone is just “acting.”

Stonehearst Asylum (Netflix)

Lol. I was doing a search on netflix mental illness movies as ran across this one. I guess I will label it suspense comedy?? Based on Edgar Allen Poe’s: Short Story Stonehearst Asylum about a recent medical school graduate brought in for clinical studies to offer hope and compassion to its residents. Dr. Newgate had good intentions but the longer he observes, the more secrets he uncovers. The movie is set in the late 1800s. Starring Kate Beckingsale from (The Underworld Series.) While the movie was funny to laugh at it, the story wasn’t too far from the truth of how the mentally ill and indifferent were treated in the 1800s. Disabled, homosexual, elderly etc. No one was exempt in those days. I don’t want to give too much away. But, if you can watch it until the end it will completely throw you off. Trust me. You will not see the climax coming!! I would recommend it if you are in the mood for some bipolar entertainment..

Hint hint: Think = Shutter Island..

However, it did have some interesting quotes:

“Death cannot be prevented any more than madness cured.”

“Of all the afflictions I think of none more cruel than madness. It robs a man of his reason, his dignity, his very soul. And it does so, so slowly, without the remorse of death.”

Girl, Interrupted – A Review

Woman, Interpreted

Entertainment Feature
Susanna Kaysen saw her troubled past re-created by Winona Ryder in Girl, Interrupted
By Sarah Saffian
Us, February 2000

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WHEN WINONA RYDER FINALLY MET Susanna Kaysen, the writer she would be playing in Girl, Interrupted, the movie star was very nearly speechless. “She said. ‘lt’s you … I’m you … you’re me… I’m me!'” recalls Kaysen, who wrote the best-selling 1993 memoir on which the film is based. Like the movie, the book begins in 1967 when Kaysen, then 18, was diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder after she swallowed 50 aspirin. In the wake of this suicide attempt, Kaysen was whisked off to McLean Hospital, near Cambridge, Mass., where she spent two years in a ward for teenage girls. “Of course, I was sad and puzzled,” Kaysen writes. “I was 18, it was spring, and I was behind bars.”

But Kaysen wasn’t sure if she was insane or simply suffering from a bad case of late-teen angst, symptoms of which include a fragile self image, moodiness and uncertainty about the future. All in all, it’s a situation to which Ryder could relate. Six years ago, when the actress first read Kaysen’s book, she was reminded of a similar breakdown in her own late teens: After having chronic anxiety attacks, depression and insomnia, she checked herself into a psychiatric hospital for a week and began working with a therapist. The experience, though troubling, eventually helped Ryder bring depth and resonance to the character of Susanna.

“Winona’s own memory of what it’s like to feel alienation added gravity and a sense of purpose to her work in the film,” says Girl’s screenwriter-director James Mangold, 36. “Significant aspects of her personality‚Äďher sensitivity, the way she is so affected by things‚Äďfused well with aspects of Susanna’s. The movie is about who Winona is as much as it’s about who Susanna is.”

Still, Kaysen, now 51, was initially skeptical about the movie. When producer Douglas Wick approached the writer about buying the film rights to her memoir, “I thought he was crazy,” says Kaysen. “It’s not a narrative. It’s rather static and intellectual, and it has no obvious story line. How could they make a movie from this? I figured they would have to do radical things to it; otherwise, it’s just a bunch of girls sitting on the floor smoking cigarettes.”

Indeed, in adapting the book for the screen, Mangold decided to craft a cohesive, chronological narrative and to intensify the relationships between the characters. Most crucially, he fleshed out Susanna’s friendship with Lisa, a charismatic sociopath (played by Angelina Jolie) who serves as a symbol of rebellion and escape from the cares of the adult world. “In facing adulthood, Susanna can go two ways,” Mangold explains. “One is the way of the pod people in her parents world, marching off to war or college or family life; the other is Lisa’s way of seductive freedom.” Kaysen didn’t mind the changes. “If someone had told me what to do in my book, I would’ve killed thern,” she says. “But the movie is another endeavor, a variation on a theme. They can’t change what I wrote or my experiences in my life.”

Those experiences have been, by and large, internal. Kaysen has lived a fairly sedentary existence, as perhaps befits a writer. She has lived in Cambridge most of her life, including a brief stay on a commune. Although her father, Carl Kaysen, was an Ivy League economics professor, Kaysen resolutely avoided college, drifting instead from job to job, making a living as a copy editor and writing all the time. In 1987, she published her first novel, Asa, As I Knew Him, about a woman imagining her old flame’s youth, and followed it up with 1990’s Far AfieId, about an anthropologist doing research in the North Atlantic’s Faroe Islands. According to Kaysen the genesis of her memoir actually stemmed from her work on the latter novel: “There were paralels between being dropped into a foreign country and being dropped into the loony bin,” she says. These days, Kaysen still lives in Cambridge and suffers from depression, but says she has made peace with her demons, periodically seeing a psychologist, whom she calls her “tuneup woman.” She has also made peace with being alone. Although she was briefly married in her 20s, she has been single for most of her life. “I’ve been looking for a date for 10 years,” she admits, a fact that success hasn’t changed. “Fame, she says, “doesn’t bring a woman in America a date.”

SARAH SAFFIAN

http://www.saffian.com/womaninterpreted.htm

32 Pills: Suicide & Ruth Litoff

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Blown away!! The 1st two words I could think of to best describe my take on this riveting documentary about the life and suicide of Ruth Litoff told through the eyes of her sister Hope. The documentary was released in 2017 and is currently on HBO OnDemand. I had this on my watchlist for about a month and just decided to check it out last night. I was not prepared for the depth, tragedy, artistic expression¬† and passion of Ruth’s life. Now I’m not really an “art” person. But, check these out for yourself:

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Original art of Ruth Litoff via Goggle Images.

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Nice, right??!! Ruth was creative and artistic beyond description. There are tons of original pieces on Google and more information about her life and legacy. I did not want to start with the details of her suicide because she was much more than mentally ill. Her family and friends speak of her as complex, beautiful, secure within herself and much more. Although the documentary had a lot of nudity, it really captured the essence of who Ruth was. One of my favorite movies, Gia, about the life and death of Gia Carengi, one of the 1st American supermodels who contracted AIDS in the 80s, is very similar.

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They should have been twins, right?? Adorable!!

Ruth literally wrote every detail, kept every medication, every picture, medical document in tons of storage containers in an effort to share her creativity and inner demons with her sister Hope. In certain scenes of the documentary Hope became obsessed with Ruth and it began to really affect her life and family in negative ways. To the point that Hope started drinking to cope with the pain and guilt of losing her sister.

Her “favorite person”… “Her everything.”

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Hope putting the pieces together…

I was definitely in research mode after watching this!! There a lot of similarities between bipolar and BPD (bipolar personality disorder.) You may also want to check out Girl, Interrupted, the autobiography of¬† Susanna Kaisen. I know you remember the movie with Winona Ryder, Brittany Murphy and Angelina Jolie. Borderline people are toxic together. I would say Ruth was codependent and Hope was controlling. But, that’s just my opinion.

This blog entry was created to raise awareness of mental illness and its many dimensions. Let’s continue to share our stories with truth and transparency.

Brain On Fire (Netflix)

My Take of Brain On Fire. Now on Netflix & also based on true events and the memoir of Susannah Cahalan.

Great news followers!! I am so excited!! I added this movie to my list a few days before I decided to check it out. I was anxious to see if it would give me more education on the topic of mental illness or at least a great storyline to share on this blog. It did not disappoint!! From beginning to end, I was hooked. The movie was based on a true story about a 20s something woman named Susannah Cahalan (played by Chloe Moretz) who was misdiagnosed with mental illness. She also experienced debilitating seizures, while also exhibiting classic bipolar and schizophrenic symptoms. Her family and doctors were baffled on what was going on with her and how to treat her symptoms.

Susannah had been written off as an alcoholic..under too much stress…partying too much etc. Actually, she had a “very rare” brain disorder that was very hard to treat. Her suffering broke my heart. But, hope took its place. Diagnosed in 2013 with bipolar disorder and suffering with depression all my life, her story hits close to home. It definitely made me wonder about my situation.

Every once in awhile a movie is made or a book is written that gives you chills or changes your life forever. It was heartbreaking to see her suffering, but it was also refreshing to see something real and tangible when it comes to mental illness diagnosis. Chloe Moretz really played this role and I believe it will catapult her acting career. She definitely has versatility, being so young and “up and coming” in Hollywood. This movie just proves that when you get the right doctor and the support of your family, anything is possible!!

I won’t give all the good stuff away. (No spoilers.)
I encourage you to check this movie out. Grab your tissue. Open a dialogue about mental illness. Share your story and keep pushing for your breakthrough!! Your future is not blocked. You got this!! There will be brighter days.

My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward

Mark Lukach writes his wife Guilia’s life story with so much love and compassionate you almost feel like he went through it with her. Their love story is definitely one for the ages and pushes the limits of “in sickness and in health” to the point of no return. It is a heart-wrenching yet hopeful marriage that is redefined by mental illness and affirms the power of love.

Mark and Guilia’s life together began as a fairytale romance. They fell in love at eighteen, got married at twenty-four, and started their dream life in San Francisco soon after. But when Guilia was twenty-seven, she suffered a terrifying and unexpected psychotic break that landed her in the psych ward for nearly a month. One day she was vibrant and well-adjusted, the next, she was delusional and suicidal, convinced that her loved ones were not safe. Years thereafter, she suffered two more breaks after the birth of their 1st child.

An exploration of the fragility of the mind and the tenacity of the human spirit is tried and tested in the fire. A true love story for any couple facing unexpected mental illness and the hard road to wellness and recovery. Lukach’s devotion to his wife and family knows no bounds.

Grab the tissues and get ready to be inspired!!

This is Me.

I saw these cool questions in my new bphope magazine and thought I’d share them with you, my followers:

Nickname: Lemon drop. (Don’t ask lol.)

Favorite Documentary: The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks.

On top of my playlist: Jhene Aiko.

Most unusual talent: Color Coordinating.

To destress I like to: Pray. Listen to music. Adult Coloring.

Best Guilty Pleasure: Coffee. I can’t start my day without it.

Biggest Adventure I’ve had: Whenever I am really manic. I feel like I can fly.

My Hero Is: Michelle Obama.

I’m grateful for: Everything (at the moment).

My best coping strategy: Encouraging others.

My best resource: The Bible.

Greatest lesson I’ve learned: Its okay to not be okay.

Proudest Achievement: 3.5 GPA. Fighting Bipolar I.

What message would you put on a billboard: “Sagittarius rule the world!!”

Favorite Memory: My 1st trip to Chicago for my husband’s family reunion.

Friends would describe me as: Honest. Mean. Passionate.

Current state of mind: Chill.

Location: Over the rainbow.

Occupation: Blogger.

Age: 38. I am not old.

Diagnosis: Bipolar I.

Year Diagnosed: 2013.

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Today. Its been awhile. I am still here. Still fighting. My oldest daughter was hospitalized today for severe depression & anxiety. Surprisingly, she was calm and cooperative. I have a family history of bipolar disorder and trauma, but many of my family members will not admit it. Thank God for small beginnings!! That beginning started with me. Yes. I was the first one to be diagnosed and have been on several psychotropic medications for 5 years. I take my meds everyday. One day of managing my illness is better than one second of pain. Some days still suck. But, mostly I am thankful and blessed to still be here. Many from our community lost the battle. Many are still in denial. Many families are devastated. But, I am hopeful because people like us raise awareness about mental illness and fight everyday to function and be well. This is a time of celebration!!

This blog was created to entertain. But, also to raise awareness about mental illness and stand up for the brave all over the world. So, am I sad for my daughter?? No way. Its a brand new day!! She is 21 with a bright future ahead of her.

Stay you. Stay strong.

This Fragile Life (Review)

By Charlotte Pierce-Baker

What is the measure of a mother’s love? For many mothers we will go above and beyond to protect our children. But, Mrs. Baker’s patience and perseverance got her son Mark through the most difficult years of his life. Charlotte walks us through the turbulence of her son Mark’s¬†bipolar¬†illness and his struggles with alcohol and drug addiction. What I found so refreshing was that Mark was raised in a¬†loving, two-parent household. His parents were upper middle-class¬†citizens, highly-educated and very driven to give¬†their only child, Mark,¬†all the opportunities afforded an African American¬†man¬†in the 21st century.

Like¬†many¬†people who suffer from mental illness,¬†his childhood and teenage years were considered “growing pains”¬†and not taken too seriously. Mark excelled in academics and he proudly climbed the ranks to a promising young adult life filled with a prestigious college education and plans to start a family. But, like any illness that goes undiagnosed Mark¬†reached his breaking point and recovery became¬†an arduous uphill battle.¬†There aren’t many stories about mental illness and how it affects¬†black¬†families. I was very excited to read something that not only shed some light on mental illness in the black community, but also provided a plan for wellness that included the whole family. Mark was not alone!

This Fragile Life¬†was informative and¬†compelling. Kay Redfield Jamison, the author of An Unquiet Mind and professor of psychiatry, said, “Together, mother and son make clear that bipolar¬†illness is painful and often inexplicable to those who suffer from it, as well as to those who love them. But they also make¬†clear that there is much that can be done to help and¬† that one need not be alone in one’s suffering. This Fragile Life is an important book.”

 

 

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His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

 

Bipolarized: The Movie

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http://bipolarizedthemovie.com

The movie follows Ross McKenzie on his journey to discover the reasons for his mental breakdown in his early twenties.

Diagnosed with bipolar disorder, Ross’ psychiatrist told him he would live with the disorder for the rest of his life and that he would have to take lithium to control symptoms. To Ross, taking the drug daily felt like a chemical lobotomy, leaving him in a foggy, drug-induced haze. Ross ultimately decided to resolve his symptoms outside of conventional medicine. He progressively reduced his use of the psychotropic drug lithium, at an experimental clinic in Costa Rica. What ensued was a self-exploration into alternative treatments to treat his condition and a journey delving into the root cause of his mental breakdown.

The film uses Ross’ personal experiences to tell a larger story about medication. It will reveal how we are labelling more and more people with mental illnesses and how, in tandem, we are prescribing more and more toxic psychotropic drugs to treat these illnesses.

BIPOLARIZED weaves together a series of interviews with activists, psychiatrists and other psychiatric survivors who have challenged the status quo as well as recounts some of the alternative therapies Ross uses to maintain his mental, emotional and physical health.

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His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

A Fractured Mind

afracturedmind“When I have a difficult decision to make I always convene an inner committee meeting I allow all parts of me to air opinions; that way I know that all of me owns the decision.” Anonymous

A Fractured Mind, tells the story of Robert B. Oxnam. A highly-intelligent, distinguished scholar with 11 personalities. This¬†was my first time reading a memoir on someone who struggles with Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as MPD).¬†I¬†was disappointed that I couldn’t finish¬†the book, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be beneficial to someone else. The reason I couldn’t read¬†it is because when I’m coming out of a manic episode, it’s hard for me to comprehend too many storylines all at once. But, I will do my best to share my thoughts in¬†a manner in which you (my audience) will understand.

I was four pages into Robert’s story when the above quote caught my attention and even though I wasn’t able to follow his story to the very end, it gave me a new respect for DID and what people¬†go through. Oxnam built his career on perseverance and competitive determination. While climbing the ranks of Asian Society his dedication and outer¬†persona was everything society trains us to be.¬†By 1984, his¬†life began to¬†unravel. He no longer had the passion to succeed and this¬†led to blocks of memory and fits of rage.

Fast forward to March of 1990, we meet Bob…

Robert is diagnosed with DID¬†by Dr. Smith, a renowned psychiatrist, who uses the method of integration to merge Robert’s personalities into one dominant individual.¬†“Bob” introduces himself as a sensitive, open-minded personality who seems to be very concerned with finding the solution to his elusive problem. Then we meet “Tommy.”¬†A¬†younger personality¬†that¬†comes across as defensive and very sarcastic.¬†I tried to get to a point where I could distinguish between the first two alters, but by Chapter 5 I was unable to focus and follow the succession of events that led to the other storylines.¬†So rather than trying to read¬†the story in a state of confusion, I decided to put it down and read something more similar to my own struggles.

So in the end, I decided to review the book anyway in hopes that it would shed some light for people who may be trying to discover the cause of the madness and inner conflict that results from this particular mental disorder. I was intrigued by the conflict that arose from each individual and the differences they added to the making of the author. If you have read this memoir please feel free to share your comments and insights for further discussion.

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His power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

Secret Window

secretwindow“The only thing that matters is the ending.” Mort Rainey

(2004) starring Johnny Depp and John Turturro, directed by David Koepp (also wrote Panic Room). The story is based on the book by Stephen King.

Johnny Depp stars as Mort Rainey, a reclusive heartbroken writer suffering from writers block who is being terrorized by a menacing stranger accusing him of plagiarism.

Secret Window is one of my all-time favorite psychological thrillers. It is a terrifying edge-of-your-seat story that will keep you guessing until the very end. I picked this¬†movie for this weeks review because it is timeless and its a clear example of what can happen to the mind when one traumatic event changes the course of your life. I always say, ‘there is a fine line between¬†truth and reality.’ We are all capable of unspeakable terror when we are pushed to the limit.¬†No one is exempt!

Stephen King is a genius at bringing the literary world to life. Johnny Depp truly captures the essence of¬†suspense in every scene. His performance is classic! John Turturro also gives a lot of¬†depth to his¬†passion for writing. So the question is: Is his character “Shooter” just¬†a wild figment of Mort’s imagination or does he really exist?

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His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

The Quiet Room

thequietroomcover–¬†Excerpts from The Quiet Room by Lori Schiller

“As I look back on my childhood, one memory plagues me. It is the memory of the afternoon of the dog. I remember that when I was young my family had a medium-sized black mongrel. He was kept chained to a door. One day as I was in the kitchen with him I suddenly grew angry. In a burst of¬†rage, I grabbed a nearby golf club and began beating the dog furiously. After awhile he stopped moving. Dead. To this day I do not know why I did it. But there is one problem with this memory: It isn’t true. It never happened.¬†¬†

“Writing this book has been painful and exhilarating. It was painful to force myself to remember things that I would just as soon forget. But its been exhilarating to see how far I’ve come. Dr. Doller told me once when I was in the hospital that I could never go back. I could never again be the girl I was before that dark night at summer camp. Looking over my life, I know now that I don’t want to go back. I want to go ahead. I look forward to a future fulfilled with accomplishment, learning and the love of my family and friends. Many people helped me get to where I am now. Now it is my turn. Painful as it has been, I’ve written this book hoping that my story can help other people find their own ways out of darkness, I will know that I have not wasted the great gift I have been given: the chance to begin life again.”

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I started reading The Quiet Room on Friday Jan.27th, a cold and gloomy winter day. I had to fight the urge to read it all in one sitting. It’s like¬†each movie I’ve watched or book I’ve read has breathed new life¬†and meaning into my own fight for¬†sanity. I was so excited to read something that would take me deep into the world of schizophrenia.

The Quiet Room is written by Lori Schiller and Amanda Bennett. It gives readers a front-row seat into the life of Lori Schiller and¬†her¬†tumultuous road out of the darkness into recovery. Her story, narrated¬†from first person perspective, takes you into the minds of her family and friends¬†as they dealt with denial and finally acceptance while¬†helping her recovery.¬†Lori didn’t experience her first “voices” episode until she was 17 years old. She came from a loving, close-knit family and was the oldest of three children.

After reading Lori’s story, I am further convinced that mental illness is not always the result of a dysfunctional family or traumatic childhood. Every mental illness follows its own unpredictable path. Lori was going places. She was well on her way to fulfilling all her childhood dreams and making her parents proud. But, I have to wonder did Lori suffer from a classic case of overachievement? Did her obsession with¬†being the best finally push her over the edge? By 1989, at the age of 23, she had been in and out of dozens of psychiatric hospitals and she had tried dozens of stabilizing medications. It wasn’t until she was completely ready to get well did she accept her illness and cooperate with the help she needed.

The Quiet Room is a masterpiece from start to finish! It is a timeless tale of survival, courage and redemption meant to encourage people with even the most severest mental illness cases. If you or someone you know suffers from schizophrenia The Quiet Room is the book for you!

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His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

Infinitely Polar Bear

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On a scale from 1 to 10 I give it a 7. Truly a fascinating story! Infinitely Polar Bear is the story of a bipolar individual (Mark Ruffalo) who takes over sole responsibility for his two spirited daughters while his wife (Zoe Saldana) attends graduate school in New York.

The 1st time I watched it I was speechless. I decided to watch it again to really tune in to the experience of what its like for a family coping with a mentally ill father. The movie gives a multi-dimensional look into what it feels like to go completely manic only to come crashing down and fall into severe depression. The story takes place in 1960s Boston.

However, I wouldn’t advise watching it while kids are present until you see it first. Aside from the¬†bad language it really gave range into the acting ability¬†of Zoe Saldana.¬†Movies like this are powerful for up and coming actors/actresses because it takes them¬†out of their comfort zone¬†into unknown territory. Mark Ruffalo gave an awesome performance as well! The storyline was very raw¬†and relevant for 21st century mental illness sufferers. Every bipolar experience is different and this one was timeless. I would recommend it for people who suffer from the extreme highs¬†of bipolar disorder. You¬†can watch this one for free at http://putlocker.com

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His power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

 

All the Things We Never Knew

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Chasing The Chaos of Mental Illness

By Sheila Hamilton

Sheila Hamilton¬†is a reporter in Portland, Oregon.¬†She is the ex-wife¬†of David Krohl, a building contractor and devoted father who¬†suffered from bipolar disorder.¬†Six weeks after his mental illness diagnosis…he committed suicide with not so much a note as to his reasons why and a mountain of debt. Sheila was¬†married 10 years before she realized he was in trouble. However, the signs were always there. In the book, Sheila gives a raw candid account of her life with David and the things she went through after his death. She also gives us a profound lesson¬†on how to pick up the pieces and support a child after she has lost her father.

This book was raw and detailed. My heart broke for Sheila and her daughter, Sophie. It also broke for her husband as he battled denial and self-destruction. The book literally takes readers into the depths of denial, guilt and the pain of watching the person you love maintain the semblance of a normal life in all their mental chaos. The book also provides a plethora of mental illness research, education and resources for families and caregivers affected by mental illness.

I had to resist the urge to judge or criticize Sheila’s choices in caring for her ex-husband. There is no “magic” blueprint on how to deal with a tragedy on this level. She showed strength and courage in the face of calamity.¬†David’s story will resonate on my heart and mind for years to come. It¬†gives¬†readers a real-life testimony of unconditional love and loyalty when you feel like giving up.

I encourage readers¬†and mental health sufferers to be¬†aware of the signs¬†and symptoms of mental illness and how it affects everyone around them. Please don’t give up.¬†There is help out there!

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His strength is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

A Response from Mimi Baird…

Recently I wrote¬†the author and daughter of Dr. Perry Baird regarding my thoughts on her father’s memoir and manuscript, He Wanted the Moon. This book is by far, hands down¬†the BEST book I’ve ever read on the topic of manic depression! It is about the genius and madness of a doctor in the 1940s. What’s more, Brad Pitt is directing the book into a¬†movie¬†to be released¬†at a later date.¬†I was beyond¬†excited after reading Dr. Baird’s story. I think I read the book in 6 hours. I won’t spoil it for you! But, I implore you to visit the website¬†for all the upcoming news and information about the manuscript and how it came to life.¬†(Link Below) There is also an interview with Mimi in the winter 2017 issue of BpHope Magazine!

My Email:
I just finished reading your father’s story today and I am floored at how mental illness was treated in the 1940s. I am also inspired to continue my journey of providing education to the mental illness community. Deep in my heart, Dr. Baird’s story resonates in my spirit as one of truth and martyrdom for people like me who sometimes take their recovery for granted. I would love to hear more of your personal childhood memories in a sequel or movie. Thank you soooo much for being so brave!

Mimi Baird’s Response:

LaQuita, your comment of January 14 was music to my heart.  It makes the efforts that went into writing He Wanted the Moon worthwhile on a multitude of levels.  We are grateful for your honesty and respect your own struggles.  For your information HWTM is to be made into a film!  Check out some early posts on the Facebook page.

With appreciation,
Mimi

For More Information about the Book

Please visit http://hewantedthemoon.com

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His power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9